Vivid Memories

I had a moment today. I was out of the office, going from jobsite to jobsite, sitting in traffic just listening to the radio. A song came along. Not just any song, one that was filled with happy memories that have since turned sad. Memories of friendship and laughter that have long since died. This happens to me a lot. It's not always sad memories, but songs stick out to me and certain ones leave a lasting impression on my soul. When I listen to them I am instantly returned to that time and re-live each moment with vivid clarity. Some of them tend to come out in the form of tears, whether happy tears or sad. This is when I realized that I do a lot of thinking on the road. My commute to work is a minimum of 45 minutes each direction. That's a long time to sit and reflect. Reflect on the day, the month, the year. Any memory that may flood into my brain at any given time. That's when I realized that my little silver friend has seen me through many times. She has seen all the tears, some of the fights, heard every story. She hears my prayers that I send to God, or to up to heaven to my dad. I have many moments during these times. I sing, I dance, I laugh, I cry, but mostly I use the time to reflect. I think about everything that has happened in my life and I dream about the future to come. I can't explain why songs seem to have this affect on me. They truly make me very contemplative.

I had a talk with the hubby the other day. We have seriously been considering uprooting our lives and moving out of state for a change of pace. It's something that has been on our minds a lot the past couple of years, but in the last six months or so have seriously considered. If he would have asked me two years ago, I would have said absolutely not....now the answer is yes, but give me a yearish. I guess the idea of leaving everything I know, and all my family is scary. Then I think to myself, if I ever need them all I would have to do is put on a song and be taken back with them. My emotions tend to ebb and flow like the ocean. I am re-missed to believe that I am back in an ebb state. Feeling a little insecure, and lonely. Lives are changing all around me and I so desperately wish that my dream will come true soon. To give my husband all that he dreams of having. When I am feeling this way, all I have to do is put on a song and have him hold me in his arms. Gently rocking back and forth, moving to the sound of the music. Feeling his strong embrace around me, and it makes me feel better. Knowing that I am not alone, that someone truly understands me and loves me.

I know I am not alone in these feelings. Also that songs can trigger many memories. I guess that's why it's the most powerful form of art that we can use to express ourselves. Please take a listen to the playlist below to hear a handful of the songs that have triggered a memory over the last week or so. Some have been so powerful that I was silent for several minutes after the song ended. It just had me wondering, where do you all do your thinking?

Memories can be very powerful, especially on a day like today. I would like to take the time today to remember all those who lost their lives on this day twelve years ago, and thank all the hero's that have come since to help protect our freedom. Without each other we would have nothing. All I can say is a heartfelt Thank You. Always remember!

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