When all you want to do is cry......

I had a little breakdown mid day yesterday. The hubs shared some news with me about another couple that was successful in conceiving a child and I just couldn't hold it in any longer. Coping mechanisms say to let yourself have a pity party....it's healthy. So that's what I did. I went into the bathroom and cried for about 10 minutes. Feeling like a failure at the one thing we should naturally be able to do. Everyone says to relax and just let it happen, and I know that I have great support, but honestly sometimes I just need to vent my frustrations. That's where you all come in. I can just write how I feel and nobody's feelings will be hurt if I don't take their advice.

I know I am not alone in these feelings or in this situation. But can't we be honest....you feel like there is something incomplete when you get to this point of wanting a child and it doesn't come, or doesn't come easily. You feel utterly helpless. You try all you can do, read all the research (not wanting to take the fateful trip to the doctor so they will give you the facts and possibly bad news.) We decided that it was time. 10 months of nothing and a year since the last one has made us say.....it's time to find out what the deal is. So that's what we will do. Make an appointment for us both to go in and get checked out.

So back to the pity party.....I had it, talked with my loved ones...then took an ovulation test. We are not giving up! Staying strong through the weak moments! It's all we can do.