Let's get this sorted out

Ok you might recall my post from last year regarding things of a womanly nature. Well since then things have gotten progressively better, but they are not by all means normal. When I went to the doctor last year, she told me to go get some blood work done. When she got the results she told me some information that means I will just have irregular cycles because of the make-up of my body. The only way to regulate them is to either, lose weight (I am not heavy, but could spare 5 pounds) or to go on birth control. Well since the second option will defeat the purpose of why I went off it to begin with, that seemed highly unlikely. So I decided to start working out. Since then, and since a lot of the stress that I was dealing with has fallen off, I have noticed everything even out. I did have one month of normality for pre B.C. Christmas Day, early at 3AM I awoke to utter and sheer pain. Shaking, vomiting, you name it there it was. The hubbs was just holding me while I lied on the bathroom floor holding the trash can. Afterwards he looked at me and said, "Wow. I have never seen you in so much pain." Well that used to be a monthly occurrence and I was hoping to never have it back.

Since 2010, I have had spouts of 40 days to as little as 21 days and it's driving me nuts. I thought that my spikes in emotions were due to my father's death and the mourning process, which I am sure still is the case on some points. Considering that I pushed most of my feelings aside to focus on other things. Since my focus has been returned, I have noticed the waves of emotions even more. I am either really happy or completely sad/angry/irritated. Now, is this because of my depression or is it because of something else? I don't know. Sometimes I feel at any second that I am going to burst into tears. It's really weird. No I am not preggers, I'm pretty sure.

I have done a lot of research. I know that for some people coming off B.C. can take a long time and some people wait years for their cycles to normalize. I also know that severe stress can cause this irregularity too. But there is the thought in the back of my head that there is an underlying problem. Endometriosis runs in my family and so do miscarriages. I figured with all that has been going on with my body lately that I would make the appointment and just get everything sorted out. So that's my task today. Hopefully it will all get figured out and I will have some answers! Stay tuned.